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DDAY of second affair(10 years apart) was a few days ago, posted in just found out a quick story. First time posting on here because I don’t see myself ever fully trusting him again. So I currently feel separation/divorce is what makes sense for me. My main worry is about the effects on my two young children. That is my fear. I don’t fear financial, even though I don’t have job. I don’t fear criticism or lack of support, nor being alone. I understand and have seen divorce through almost all of my immediate family. I always thought he was "almost" the perfect husband except for the first affair and now second. Everything else is was great and I believe that’s why I chose reconciliation the first time. Now, second time around he’s apologetic, remorseful and wants to reconcile like we did 10 years ago, he is doing as I say and ask and we are being cordial when kids are home. He told me today actually, take my time and not to worry about finances, which i never did, I guess just reassured me he wouldn’t cut me off. He said he continue to provide and keep the home peaceful for our kids, whether I decide to reconcile or divorce. His concern seems to be our kids well being first and hopes for reconciliation 2nd.

But I don’t feel or see reconciliation. Now with only a few days to process, I am questioning, how long do I take to decide? I’m impatient person lol I like things resolved and don’t like being uneasy. I know I should take my time, plan and be sure before saying something. But should I give myself a deadline to have a decision by? How long did you take to decide?

[This message edited by chica1 at 3:20 AM, Wednesday, January 28th]

This is the second time after a long period of R. I don't see why he deserves another chance, and I see no reason you have to wait. In your shoes, I would do some free consultations with lawyers to understand the likely outcome of the divorce (with respect to finances and custody) and then pick the attorney I like best and begin divorce proceedings. Right now, he's still full of guilt and playing nice. It's the best time to take action.

If you go this route, it's up to you whether you tell him about your meetings with the lawyers. Either way, tell a close friend/family member what's going on. You should definitely have someone in your corner to support your through this, and you might need school pick ups or childcare help, especially if he turns angry and/or walks out on you.

As for R, obviously that's your decision, but my feeling is that if you offer R to him again, he will have zero incentive not to repeat this in 5 or 10 years. People who are sorry but keep repeating the same bad behavior aren't regretful but not reformed.

I'm really sorry you find yourself in this situation. Once is bad enough. A second betrayal after years of R must be incredibly painful.

[This message edited by NoThanksForTheMemories at 5:20 AM, Wednesday, January 28th]